Bismillahirahmanirrahim
"Aku memilih untuk berada di sini bukan kerana sudah penuh ilmu untuk berkongsi apatah lagi mengajar. Tapi, kerana ada satu rasa ingin aku sampaikan kepada kalian biarpun sebesar zarah, ku harapkan redha dariNya. Penulisanku adalah sebuah penceritaan yang kadang aku tak dapat ungkapkan dengan kata-kata atau bicara. Harapanku, luah rasa dan pandanganku yang tak seberapa ini mungkin boleh kalian ambil sedikit ibrah darinya dan semoga ada pula satu semangat yang ingin ku suntikan dalam hati-hati kita biarpun sekelumit cuma."

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

"Let it Go"

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation
And it looks like i'm the Queen
The wind is howling
Like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in
Heaven knows I tried

Don't let them in
Don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, Don't feel
Don't let them know
Well now they know

Let it go
Let it go
Can't hold me back anymore
Let it go
Let it go
Turn away and slam the door


I don't care
what they're going to say
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bother me anyway

It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all
It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong
No rules for me
I'm Free!

Let it go!
Let it go!
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go!
Let it go!
You'll never see me cry

Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on
My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes - like an icy blast

I'm never going back
The past is in the past

Let it go!
Let it go!
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go!
Let it go!
That perfect girl is gone
Here I stand - in the light of day
Let the storm rage on!

The cold never bother me anyway.

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p/s: Just sharing one of my newest favorite song. Okay, I know it's already famous. But, it's juz burning in me. 

Yes! I know you Hajar! (^0^)/

ps2: ok2 bye.haha. :p




Monday, September 1, 2014

"Keep Looking, Don't Settle."

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I believe that I can't help myself from sharing this great and inspirational words from someone who was gifted and offered good things to people. 

Bill Gates once said: "When someone is being given much, much should be given." 

I was driving from my hometown today and I recalled my conversation with my brother. So, I searched and listened for about more than five times the speech given by a man named - Steve Job. 

I hope you will listen to it more than I did. I would say about 99% he said was true. InshaAllah.

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I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.


The first story is about connecting the dots.


....And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. 

Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. 

I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. 

Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. 

If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. 

As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Thank you all very much

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About few days ago, I went to our Chairman house. I believe it should not be called just a - house. If you know what I mean. I had to pass through two securities to get to his door. I waited for him to come down just to get his signature before he rest. He had a jetlag. 

From his expression, his appearance and his house, I know this is the 5% group of people who lives in the 'fast track' described by Rich Dad. 

Rasa excited seeing him, i shared with my friends in the office. One of them said to me: "Tpi, kalau senang, nanti mudah lupakan Tuhan." 

saya cuba respon: "em, betul... tpi, takkan sebab tu kamu takut jdi orang senang? kmu rasa, kalau kmu jadi kaya dan senang...and kamu boleh tetap ingat pada Allah... kamu rasa bgus tak mcm tu?" 

As for me, wallahuallam.. I keep praying that Allah help and guides me to keep putting Him as my priority and my goal. So that, whatever being given by Him will always become a mean for me to get closer to Him. 

I have no time to waste to make the rich richer, I need to do it for those needed. 

Just like Steve Job said, I will ask myself everyday: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something."

I don't know how to do it. But he also said: "Keep Looking, Don't Settle."


ps: plz get the link here.

Monday, August 4, 2014

Aisyah: Memilih Islam

"Tu Kak Aisyah. Dia chinese maksu tapi masuk Islam."

"oo...patutlah maksu tengok muka dia macam chinese."

"dia masuk Islam masa Form 2. Skrg kira dah dua tahun la. Tapi parents dia tak tau."

"ohh... lorr..susah jugak kalau mcm tu."

Sambil saya dan anak sedara menuju ke kereta nak angkat barang-barang. Menghantar anak sedara ke Sekolah semalam. Alhamdulillah tak jem. Kluar rumah sebelum subuh. =.='

"dia jumpa ustaz bagitau dia nak masuk islam. tapi dia tak nak parents dia tau sebab takut depa tak boleh terima...

Kalau dia balik bermalam ka apa... dia terpaksa suruh mak ayah dia ambik lewat2 bagi ramai student dah balik dulu, lepas tu..baru dia boleh keluar asrama sebab nak kena bukak tudung."

"Laa... a'a.. susah. Kesiannya."

"Tula...dah tu nak buat macamna lagi. Tak boleh kantoi jgak n parents dia."

"Habis kat rumah dia solat macamana?"

"kunci pintu dalam bilik la."

Dalam hati: 'Allahuakbar. Bagusnya. T_T'

"Dah dua tahun ni...parents dia memang tak tau? Dahsyat.."

"haa..tak. Dia aim sampai umur 18, baru dia akan bagitau sebab dah boleh buat keputusan sendiri."

"Adik, dia tak cerita ka kenapa dia nak masuk Islam?"

Saya rasa teringin nak tau apa yang membuatkan Allah sampaikan hidayahNya. Allahuakbar.

"tula..depa tanya kak aisyah tu, dia kata sebab hari-hari bila masa semua solat kat surau, dia duduk kat luar utk study ka apa...selalu la dengar zikir-zikir, bacaan solat.. dia rasa best. seronok. tu yang dia jumpa ustaz minta ustaz tolong ajar dia semua benda, bagi nama Muslim.. ustaz namakan dia Aisyah.

Masa dia datang sekolah satu hari tu, terkejut semua orang sebab dia pakai tudung."

"pergh..alhamdulillah. bagusla.."

"tula... so, kami semua pun panggil dia kak aisyah la."

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Allahuakbar.

Dahsyat cabaran Aisyah nak menjadi Muslim dan mendalami agama. Dalam keadaan orang yang sangat rapat dengannya tidak tahu dan mungkin menentang keislamannya. Dalam keadaan terpaksa menyembunyikan keimanannya pada khalayak ramai.

Keluar dengan tidak bertudung dek kerana perlu sembunyikan keimanan pada Allah Swt. Teringat jugak kisah Asiah yang menyembunyikan keimanannya daripada Firaun, her own husband. Bahkan, ramai lagi wali-wali Allah yang berjuang memelihara keimanan mereka.

Betapa besar pengorbanan itu. Moga-moga Allah memberi rahmat dan kedudukan yang tinggi di sisiNya di atas cabarannya.

Alhamdulillah. Segala puji hanya bagi Allah yang memilih hamba yang layak untuk memiliki cahayaNya.

sriusly, saya rasa kagum sangat. Allahuakbar.

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"Adik, tolong bagi buku ni kat Aisyah tu. Maksu tak dak buku lain yang lebih sesuai. Yang ni pun bagus."

"er..ok. Tapi, adik tak rapat pun dengan kak Aisyah tu."

"ala..adik bagi jala."

"Mesti dia pelik..malu la."

"eh..nak malu apa. Cakap ja tadi adik cerita pasai dia kat maksu. tolong la bagi."

"ok.ok."

Sebuah buku tentang mengenali Baginda Muhammad Saw.

"Anda seperti melihat Baginda SAW" - Karya Syeikh Syed al Qarni.

Semoga Allah menambahkan keimanan dan rahmatNya ke atas Aisyah.  Amen. :)


kita macamana?
Iman ok?
Hati?


"Tunjukkan kami jalan yang lurus." (Al Fatihah:6)





Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Hamba : Segala Puji hanya bagi Allah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Alhamdulillah.

Sudah berlalu 4 hari berpuasa. Allahuakbar. Actually, Ramadan datang, dan ia akan pergi juga.

Segala puji hanyalah bagi Allah yang menganugerahkan hikmah buat hamba-hambaNya.
Lihatlah apa yang Allah jelaskan di dalam al Quran:

"Dia memberikan hikmah kepada sesiapa yang Dia kehendaki. Barangsiapa diberi hikmah, sesungguhnya dia telah diberi kebaikan yang banyak. Dan tidak ada yang dapat mengambil pelajaran kecuali orang yang mempunyai akal yang sihat."

(Baqarah:269)

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah yang menganugerahkan kepada hamba-hambaNya rasa rindu akan rahmatNya di bulan Ramadan.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah yang menghadiahkan perasaan syukur kepada hambaNya apabila mereka melihat kebahagiaan dan ketenangan di dalam bulan Ramadan.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah yang menghadiahkan perasaan sedih dan dukacita untuk berpisah dengan Ramadhan.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah apabila Dia memberi rezeki kesihatan kepada hambaNya untuk banyakkan ibadah kepadaNya dan berusaha keras pada siang harinya.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah apabila Dia menguji hambaNya dengan kesakitan, kesedihan, kepayahan, kehilangan agar itu menjadi asbab untuk dihapuskan dosa hambaNya itu.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah apabila Dia merahmati hambaNya sehingga terpilih untuk menunaikan solat lima waktu, menambahkan dengan solat sunnat, terawih, tahajjud, taubat, zikir, membaca al Quran dan menyegerakan taubat di atas kesalahannya.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah apabila Dia melapangkan segala pintu-pintu kebaikan buat hambaNya dan ditambahkan dengan ganjaran dunia dan akhirat buat hambaNya.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah yang sentiasa mendengar doa-doa hambaNya dan Dia berasa amat malu apabila tidak memperkenankannya.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah yang tidak perlu kepada ucapan perkataan, bahkan memahami apakah yang ada di dalam dada hamba-hambaNya.

Hatta perkara sukar, bisa menjadi mudah.
Perkara berat menjadi ringan.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah apabila Dia menghadiahkan anugerah terbesar iaitu Baginda Muhammad Saw kepada umat manusia.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah apabila Dia memberikan al Quran yang tidak akan hanya dikagumi bahkan difahami dan diikuti.

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah apabila Dia mengajarkan tentang diriNya kepada hambaNya. Dia mengajarkan bagaimana ingin meminta kepadaNya.

Subhanallah.

Tak mungkin bisa habis jika kita ingin menghitung dan memuji Allah.

The angels, from the beginning of time until the end of time,
they are always in sujud and ruku',
worshiping HIM.

and when they wake up, they will say: "We have not worship You enough".

But we - human think that we have worshiped HIM enough.

Our 5 minutes prayer - how long do we spend for sujud?

T_T

Kita perlu banyak reflect dan muhasabah.


"ya Allah, apalah yang ada pada diriku sehingga sebanyak ini Engkau mengasihiku."


Astaghfirullahalazim
Astaghfirullahalazim
Astaghfirullahalazim


Jom banyakkan doa daripada saat ni sampai bila-bila agar Allah anugerahkan rahmatNya sehingga kita dapat bertemu denganNya di syurga kelak.

Doa juga agar Allah memilih kita untuk berada bersama-sama hambaNya yang dipilih untuk malam al Qadr.

I love all of you for the sake of Allah.
and I can't choose but always to choose His love.

We have been disappointing Him too much.
Allah has been patient in guiding us.
I can't bear the shame to repeat the same mistakes again and again.
Whatever we do or we want to do, Always remind ourselves - "Will Allah be happy with this?"

If you can't say the answer, leave it.

Kuatkan hati. Hanya untuk redha Allah semata-mata.

Jom balik pada Allah. :)





Monday, May 5, 2014

Guidance to be strong

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.


"And He found you lost and He guided (you.)"

T_T

Saya rindu sahabat-sahabat usrah dulu.
Masa kami berehlah di sungai (kat ipoh -lupe nama sungai.:p ) ,
kami berkongsi banyak cerita.
Subhanallah.
Perjalanan kami hampir sama kejadiannya,
cuma situasi sahaja berbeza-beza.

Zaman 'kejahilan'.
The scariest moments in my life.

Yang saya harap dan terus berharap agar Allah memberi keampunan.

Al 'Alim.
He knows best.
Bilakah masa terbaik untuk Dia memberi, mengambil dan memulangkan kembali.

Allah gives and takes.
There are times in our lives, when we experience such a wonderful and happiest moments,
and then.... there are times when He takes them away.

Ada yang mencari kedudukan, status, harta, kejayaan, kasih sayang,

Alhamdulillah.

Banyak perkara Allah kurniakan kepada kita,
tak kiralah samada ia tersenarai dalam doa ataupun tidak.

Tetapi, ada masa-masanya,
bila kita berdoa, meminta-minta kpd Allah,
Dia menangguhkannya.

Kita hairan. "Kenapa tak bagi-bagi?"

Sebab, bila kita memohon, kita tidak kuatkan kesabaran.
Astaghfirullahalazim.

Mintalah pada Allah agar Dia memberi kesabaran.
Terharu. Malu.
Sebab pada hari Allah kurniakan kehendak kita,
baru kita sedar,

"Allahuakbar, benarlah segala janjiMu, Engkau Lebih Mengetahui ya Rabb."

Mungkin sekiranya kita bersabar ms itu,
tidak perlu kita berduka panjang.


Saya tertanya-tanya jugak,

In our live,

"What actually make us so sad?"
"What make us most anxious about?"
"What can make us cry?"
"What can make us most happy?"

And if the answer to these questions
is not Allah.

hm.

We need to know that,
we have a problem with our heart.

We are yearning for this life (dunya) more than the next.

Fitrah kita sebagai manusia memang inginkan segala macam kebaikan,
kesempurnaan,
harapan mengunung tinggi untuk mendapat kebahagiaan.

Bila kita happy time tu,
kita kena ingat,
there is no such perfect happiness.

When we are so happy at this moment,
there will always be another side (sadness).

No. It's not me saying this.
It's Allah.

"bersama-sama kesukaran, ada kemudahan."

Yes, then this a good news too.

If we are terribly sad at this moment,
there is always be another side too (happiness.) :)

Jadi, fitrah yang Allah ciptakan dalam diri kita,
sebenarnya adalah the yearning for the next life.

Supaya kita rindukan akhirat lebih daripada dunia.
Supaya hati hamba-hambaNya yang beriman tidak terpaut kpd perhiasan dunia.

Dalam diri kita sudah tercipta satu perasaan,
Perlukan kebergantungan, kebahagiaan, pertolongan, perlindungan...

Which means,

All these cannot be given by anyone Except Our Creator!

Only Allah can protect us.
Only Allah can cure us,
Only He can mend all things that broken.
Only Allah..
Can give to us all of these.

And the perfection that we really want in our life
couldn't be find 'here' (dunya).

It is in our next life (akhirah).

In akhirah,
there will only be two things.
Perfect happiness - Jannah.
Perfect misery - hellfire. (nauzubillah)

You can never find any sadness, grief or bad things in Jannah.
and similarly,
you can never find any happiness or good things in hellfire.

Keinginan dalam diri kita perlu kembali kepada hati kita.
Apakah kita sedang mencari redha Allah?
Atau sebaliknya.

Banyak hujah dilontarkan kepada saya ttg redha Allah dan sebagainya.

Berbalik tentang apa yang boleh membuat Allah suka.
Usaha dan kesungguhan kita...

bergantung kepada tahap keimanan dan kecintaan kita kpd Allah.

Makin kita cintakan Allah,
makin kuat usaha kita.
makin laju pecutan 'kereta' kita.
kan..nak balik jumpa Allah... :)

Kalau benarlah kita rindu pd Allah,
perasaan tidak sabar itu akan menjadi motivasi sangat tinggi utk kita berusaha.

Mencari apa sahaja jalan-jalan kebaikan,
supaya Allah redha dan makin sayang pd kita.

Sedikit peringatan saya,

tak kiralah apa jua yang kita sedang lalui,

kembalilah pada Allah.

Cari Dia, berkenal-kenal dgnNya.

Supaya kita sedar,
tidak ada satu perkara pun yang dijadikanNya, melainkan dgn tujuan dan sebab musabab.
sebab, Allah sendiri tlh bentangkan pelbagai petanda kepada kita,
betapa janji-janjiNya adalah benar.



"(Iaitu) orang-orang yang menyebut dan mengingati Allah semasa mereka berdiri dan duduk dan semasa mereka berbaring mengiring, 

dan mereka pula memikirkan tentang kejadian langit dan bumi (sambil berkata): 

"Wahai Tuhan kami! Tidaklah Engkau menjadikan benda-benda ini dengan sia-sia, Maha Suci Engkau, maka peliharalah kami dari azab neraka."

T_T

What does this ayah mean?

It means, standing, sitting and on their side,
as if there is no other position left for a human.
That we need to remember Allah...

and reflect on the heaven and the earth.

saying that: "Our Lord, You did not created all these without a purpose,.."

It means that,
there is a purpose come with your sadness,
and your happiness.

Sabar. Tabah. Kuatkan diri.

"Allah will not abandon you." 




p/s: plz ignore any grammatical error. :p

Monday, February 17, 2014

Mahar Cinta Allah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Alhamdulillahirabbil'alamin.

Segala Puji hanya bagi Allah Tuhan sekalian alam.

I had to admit that I was shaken for quite some time.
It was hard. Not easy at all.
I did found myself keep falling at the same place.
I tried my best to get up and ended up fall again.

Back then, about two years ago.
HE started my first love story with Him.
The Source of Love, The Most Loving and Compassionate.
The Forebearing, The One who turns to you,
He hears and knows all thing.

Allahuakbar.

You name it. He is Everything.
You can never ever deny any of His Rahmah.

Ar Rahman.
He gives and provides for everyone and everything.
No matter if we disobey him,
if they are kufur or kafir,
even if we are sinful,
He is Ar Rahman.
We still can eat, sleep, drink, breathe...
Because Allah is Ar Rahman.

Inclusively Merciful.

Ar Rahim.
Now this is the special.
It is special because Only Muslims will be qualify for it.
He is Ar Rahim.
When He protects us from hell fire and He prepares Jannah for us.
One of my favorite hadith Qudsi:

"Tidaklah hambaKu itu mendekatkan diri denganKu dengan ibadah wajib sehinggalah Aku sayang padanya dan jika hambaKu itu melakukan amalan sunnat, maka Aku bertambah sayang padanya.

Dan bila Aku sayang pada hambaKu itu, maka Aku lah mata yang dia lihat dgnnya, Aku lah telinga yang dia dengar dgnnya, Aku lah tangan yang dia bergerak dgnnya dan Aku lah kaki yang dia berjalan dgnnya. 

Jika dia memohon pertolongan padaKu, Aku akan memberikannya dan jika dia berdoa padaKu, maka Aku akan memperkenankan untuknya." 

T_T

Now, Allah is Ar Rahim.

He is Exclusively Merciful.

"But wait hajar! What if I have done so many wrong things? I am not qualify for His Rahmah." (crying)

At Tawwab.
Allah is the One who turns towards you.
If you know you have done so many wrong thing,
go back and repent.
With your very first step, He has come even closer than you can ever imagine.
If you turn towards Him, He will definitely turns towards you.
No one can stop you from being forgiven by Allah.
I said this, because I've been there.

T_T

Astaghfirullahalazim.

"But..hmm..what if I still committing the sins? Would Allah still forgive me?"

Ghaffar.
Allah says He is Ghaffar.
He will cover you.
He will keep on forgiving you as long as you are seeking for His forgiveness.
The moment you despair from His Mercy,
that's the moment you will lose.
Whatever is being kept as a privacy between you and Him,
Do not make it public. Especially our sins.
Allah doesn't like you to expose what is being hidden by Him.
No matter how many times we fall,
we need to come back to Him.

"Beritahu kpd hamba-hambaKu yang telah melampui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri, jangan berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah, sesungguhnya Allah mengampuni segala dosa. Dialah yang Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang." (Az Zumar:53)

What's our reason to deny Allah?

"but again Hajar, what if Allah just doesn't want me? What if He just doesn't like me?"

Al Wadud.
He is the Source of Love.
He loves us. He chose you and me to come here, so that we will go through this Dunya
as a test for us.
Then, He will decide whether we can be in Jannah or hellfire.
In order to qualify for His Jannah.
Do whatever you can Just to Please Him.
If Allah says No.
Do not do it. Stay away from it.
And when He says Yes and He likes it.
Do it as much as you can.
Be greedy about it.

We never know,
where is our ending.
We never know whether we can die in saying our syahadah.

All we need is His Mercy.
Because, our Solah, fast, Ibadah, zikr,
are not sufficient to guarantee us a place in His Jannah.
We are going there by His Mercy.

And to be qualify for it,
do whatever Allah asks us to do.

Umar r.a said: "What a loser you are to miss the mercy of Allah."

Because, He is so merciful that even Firaun may be forgiven by Him.
If Firaun were to seek for His forgiveness.

Allahuakbar.

I would love to remind you and myself.
No matter what happen in our lives,
it has been written by Him.
It is being taken care of by Allah.
He is holding our hearts,
He can give and He can take.

And to Him we should return.

Kuatkan hati untuk sabar.
Kuatkan diri untuk istiqamah.
Ya, ada masa kita akan jatuh.
Iman pergi entah ke mana.
Tapi, mohonlah pada Allah agar ditetapkan hati untuknya.

Dugaan dan ujian takkan lari daripada kita.
Makin berat ujian makin banyaklah kasih sayangNya.
Makin hebat iman, makin kencanglah ujian yang melanda.

Saya suka pujuk diri bila membaca kisah insan-insan yang dikasihi Allah.

Mariam r.a

Bila melahirkan anaknya, akhirnya kerana tak mampu menanggung segala hinaan dan kesakitan,
dia berkata: "Alangkah baik jika aku mati sebelum ini." (Maryam:23)

Allah tak marah.
Allah rakamkan keluhan Mariam r.a kerana Allah Maha Memahami.
"This is not easy. I know."

Bila Allah nak naikkan kedudukan seseorang hamba,
maka ujian hidup tidak boleh biasa2.
Lihat saja pada semua orang yang dikasihiNya.
Muhammad Saw, Ibrahim a.s, Ismail a.s,
Mariam, Hajar, Musa a.s,
hmm.. ramaiii~

T_T

"Bila Allah inginkan kebaikan untuk seseorang hambaNya, maka Allah akan mendatangkan ujian buatnya." (HR Bukhari)

Allahuakbar.

Semoga Allah kuatkan diri dan hati kita.
InshaAllah, kita akan berjaya harungi semua ini.
Masa tu nanti, kita akan ketawa bahagia. haha.
Sungguh. Saya tak tipu.

Allah yang bagitau.
"Adapun kumpulan orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh, maka mereka akan ditempatkan di taman syurga dalam keadaan bersuka ria." (ArRum: 15)

(tgh snyum la tu. hee. best kan.. haa.. sabar.)

Kejayaan syurga bukan untuk orang yang berusaha biasa2.
Jalan ini memang tak mudah.
Kena bayar dengan air mata iman dan taqwa,
penat lelah dunia untuk kerehatan di sana.
InshaAllah.

We can do this!

Matlamat kita sama.
Cinta Allah. Dunia dan Akhirat.

So, if Allah is our goal, there is no reason for us to quit.

Right?

:)

Alhamdulillah.

ade org bg. tq.. :)


Saturday, January 4, 2014

Leaving the Sunnah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.


"The reason Islam was very successful back then was because they really love the Quran and Sunnah." 

Kita?

Ramai melontarkan luahan pendapat masing-masing kenapa Islam begini..begitu... tapi, kita tak sedar.. Punca or the Root cause come from us -

We Are Leaving the Sunnah!

:(

"We know who Allah is, but we did not follow.
We know who Rasulullah Saw is, but we forget."

Rasulullah Saw once said: "If you claim to love Allah, follow me (Muhammad saw)".

Sabda Baginda lagi: "Semua umatku akan masuk ke syurga melainkan sesiapa yang tidak mengkehendakinya. Para sahabat bertanya: "ya Rasulullah, siapa lah yang tidak mahukan syurga?"

Sesiapa yang taat padaku, dia akan masuk ke syurga.
Sesiapa yang ingkar dan tidak mengikutiku, dia telah menolak untuk ke syurga."

em.

Yes, I know my friends...
Loving Rasulullah Saw is not something easy.
We don't have him with us anymore.

But, we can know about him from the hadith,
Sunnah, the Quran..

I have two stories (hadith) which can me cry.
About him, Saw.

One.
It is a famous story about him in Ta'if.
Subhanallah.
People of Ta'if is standing along his way to throw stones at him.
yes. Stones.

We are not talking about one person or one stone.
We are talking about the People. Many of them.
When he was tired in Mekah, he decided to go there.

"Mungkin orang Ta'if nak kot terima Islam."

Dan Rasulullah pegi dan tidak satu rumah pun yang tidak diketuk.
Shingga berlaku kejadian itu.
Darah turun mengalir shingga ke tumit Baginda Saw.
;(

Jibrail a.s came.
"One word ya Rasulullah. Just One word and I will turn the whole Ta'if in a blink of an eye."
"No! Wait... Wait. These people... they just don't know.. give me more time."
T_T

Lalu Baginda Saw berdoa kepada Allah: "ya Allah, selagi mana Engkau tidak murka kepadaku, aku tidak peduli." 

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Don't ask me, why my love for him is growing.

Second. This story makes me smile.
And... subhanalllah.

Jabar r.a. ada seekor kuda. A white horse.
Very beautiful.
He was growing with the horse since he was young.
He loved the horse so much.
He played, took care of it.

One day, Rasulullah Saw came.
"I want to buy your horse. Sell it to me with a price."
"ya Rasulullah, errr... please take anything..but..err... errr.. try. come on... ask me anything but this one... err.."

He loved it so much.

Well.. kita pun pernah mcm tu kot.
"ala..boleh2..ambik la apa pun.. but yg ni..erm..mcm ..err.."
haha.

Subhanallah.

At last he agreed.
But with one condition.

"I want to spend One more day with him."
"Okay..."

That day... he took his horse.
He was riding with smile..and cherish his very last moment with the horse.
Then, he went to meet Rasulullah Saw.
As promised.

"Here... this is for you."

Rasulullah Saw gave him the money.
And Jabar r.a left.

Suddenly, Rasulullah Saw called him: "hey..hey..come back..come back.."

"why ya Rasulullah?"
"Here. This is a gift for you."

He returned the white horse to Jabar.

Allahuakbar.

Rasulullah Saw wanted to give him both.
Because, no matter how much the Sahabah love their properties, their own selves, they will surely love Rasulullah Saw more.

And as usual,
He is the best friend ever.
The best parents to his children,
the best leader to his people,
the best husband to his wives.

T_T

Like he said in a hadith: "The best of men is the one with the best character. And the best among them is the one, best to his lady - after he married her." 


Subhanallah.

If you ever love someone, 
do not go chasing her. 
Find Allah, and you will guarantee to find her. 
-Kamal Saleh- 

He will never return someone with a gift better or bigger than the one they gave him.
He is so self less that he will make other people's problem
become his own problems.

He loved kids so much.
That they will feel happy with him.
A small girl came and complained something to him.

"What is it?"
"Here..come..walk with me."

She took his hand and they walked in the city.
He S.aw. was not ashamed when his people looked at him.
Being 'dragged' by that young girl.

And also, even one day.
He was giving his Khutbah, standing at his mimbar.
And Rasulullah Saw saw Hasan and Hussin was running and playing outside.
With a very big clothes.
Baju tu meleret-leret.

He stopped. And he went to them.
He took them in his arm and he continued his khutbah.

"I'm sorry. I cannot resist myself looking at them."

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Allahuakbar.

Now, please don't ask
why we, Muslims love Rasulullah Saw more than ourselves.
Why he always become the most 'handsome' man in our heart.

Because he is the greatest man that ever walk in this earth.

I have missions.
I want to learn as many Sunnah as possible.
I want to practice and hopefully...
Rasulullah Saw will notice and recognize me in the judgment day.

And he will call me to come to his Khautsar...
to drink. And will never again feel thirsty.

He will invite me to sit and talk with him.
And surely, my deepest wish...
that Allah will be happy with me.

He will allow me to see His noble face.
amen.

Jom!

The Sunnah the Better. :p

Firman Allah SWT yg bermaksud: "Dan barangsiapa yang mentaati Allah dan Rasul (Muhammad), maka mereka itu akan bersama-sama dgn orang yg diberikan nikmat oleh Allah (iaitu) para nabi, para pecinta kebenaran, orang-orang yang mati syahid dan orang-orang yg soleh. Mereka itulah teman yang sebaik-baiknya. 

Yg demikian itu adalah kurnia dari Allah, dan cukuplah Allah yang Maha Mengetahui." 

(An Nisa': 69 & 70)
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